My deepest sympathy for your losses. I too have lost a father, a mother and a 23 year old son. Grief is the most difficult human emotion to bear and it never goes away, you just learn to live with it as you wait patiently for the acuteness to subside into a dull heartache. Like you I find solace in music and I thank you for your wonderful talent and teaching skills to pass it on to your students. My first lesson from you was the blues in Am when I started learning the pentatonic scales 3 years ago.
I agree with your feelings that " now is the time where I shall connect all my spiritual and musical knowledge into one thing". I am confident that you will discover inspiration in your present experiences and we look forward to your fruitful expression in the music that you will provide in the months ahead. Blessings to you Hanspeter.