After a longer time ( 2008 - 2015 ) of changments and transistions in my work and personal life I think I can now make a review and an outlook and I want to say a few last words about the tax issue which really took my full energy for the last 2 months. This incident was the last big blast of slight changments during and finally brought me to the findings which more or less will define the next years.
There are 2 points on the tax issue which are worth to name here. To once again repeat the main issue. Because a software issue my numbers were counted wrong over 10 years and nobody ever noticed this.
1. This was for me the very first time I ever lost a battle. It was very frustrating for me because I know that I was right and from the behaviour from the tax agency there is only one possiblity. They also knew that I was right but they but the guilt on me to avoid admitting there own guilt. This was very hard to accept because I always thought the truth will always win and I was always a person who was standing for truth and honesty. Now how to deal with this ? It is pretty easy - I think there there is a lot of injustice in the world and sometimes such people win. The point is not giving up and staying on the line and to continue. I have my motto ( see below ) and this was now a test for me. Its easy to say that if you never past a test. And you can believe me this was a pretty serious one for me. It was never about money. It was about justice and about how to deal with people if you get faced with injustice. In earlier days I would have taken a lawyer and gone to court but I came to the finding that I can serve my purpose better by concentrating to " put on a light "
" We can not fight against the darkness, but we can put on a light. "
Franz von Assisi
2. The 2nd thing which was pretty shocking that over all those years my numbers in my book keeping were wrong and I was building my buisness life on wrong numbers. And over all those years I was following a strategy just to keep a wrong strategy going. That's ok but I must say that I neglected some important parts in my music and my life just to hold on my strategy. And that always caused some unhappiness and I sacrificed too much for this strategy. For sure I can never allow these kind of sacrifices anymore. I will change my perspective to life itsself. So strategies anymore - I will let life flowing the way it comes and the same will be with music. I did so many strategies in my musical life - they leaded to a certain success over all those years. I even got on the very top of online education in these years. I think the highlight was around 2007 - 2009. A lot of crazy things happened in these years - nobody will believe me this, but I can tell you that deep in my heart I was not fullfilled because my creative part was suffering. Maybe I could have reached much more people then these millions at that time if I just had allowed my creativity to flow without any strategy. I had my Hollywood placements of my music there but maybe I missed my chance to take it to the next level because I could not react more.
So these were some pretty hard words about myself - such incidents are good to open up your mind and your eyes. I think I will now fokus on life and let it flow and since life and music are connected this goes hand in hand. Stay in the very present moment and enjoy what comes and don't make any thought about it - just let it happen.
Sounds pretty idealistic - somehow it is but I like it and will try to keep it that way in the future. Still I was always like that but because I thought I need to run a strategy to make my living I was not consequent and made too much sacrifices which I regret looking back. And the tax issue showed me that it did not even work the way I thought. Thats why this topic had such a tremendous impact on me.
But good I learned the lesson and once more I got reminded that the very moment in life is the only thing which counts.
After a longer time ( 2008 - 2015 ) of changments and transistions in my work and personal life I think I can now make a review and an outlook and I want to say a few last words about the tax issue which really took my full energy for the last 2 months. This incident was the last big blast of slight changments during and finally brought me to the findings which more or less will define the next years.
There are 2 points on the tax issue which are worth to name here. To once again repeat the main issue. Because a software issue my numbers were counted wrong over 10 years and nobody ever noticed this.
1. This was for me the very first time I ever lost a battle. It was very frustrating for me because I know that I was right and from the behaviour from the tax agency there is only one possiblity. They also knew that I was right but they but the guilt on me to avoid admitting there own guilt. This was very hard to accept because I always thought the truth will always win and I was always a person who was standing for truth and honesty. Now how to deal with this ? It is pretty easy - I think there there is a lot of injustice in the world and sometimes such people win. The point is not giving up and staying on the line and to continue. I have my motto ( see below ) and this was now a test for me. Its easy to say that if you never past a test. And you can believe me this was a pretty serious one for me. It was never about money. It was about justice and about how to deal with people if you get faced with injustice. In earlier days I would have taken a lawyer and gone to court but I came to the finding that I can serve my purpose better by concentrating to " put on a light "
" We can not fight against the darkness, but we can put on a light. "
Franz von Assisi
2. The 2nd thing which was pretty shocking that over all those years my numbers in my book keeping were wrong and I was building my buisness life on wrong numbers. And over all those years I was following a strategy just to keep a wrong strategy going. That's ok but I must say that I neglected some important parts in my music and my life just to hold on my strategy. And that always caused some unhappiness and I sacrificed too much for this strategy. For sure I can never allow these kind of sacrifices anymore. I will change my perspective to life itsself. So strategies anymore - I will let life flowing the way it comes and the same will be with music. I did so many strategies in my musical life - they leaded to a certain success over all those years. I even got on the very top of online education in these years. I think the highlight was around 2007 - 2009. A lot of crazy things happened in these years - nobody will believe me this, but I can tell you that deep in my heart I was not fullfilled because my creative part was suffering. Maybe I could have reached much more people then these millions at that time if I just had allowed my creativity to flow without any strategy. I had my Hollywood placements of my music there but maybe I missed my chance to take it to the next level because I could not react more.
So these were some pretty hard words about myself - such incidents are good to open up your mind and your eyes. I think I will now fokus on life and let it flow and since life and music are connected this goes hand in hand. Stay in the very present moment and enjoy what comes and don't make any thought about it - just let it happen.
Sounds pretty idealistic - somehow it is but I like it and will try to keep it that way in the future. Still I was always like that but because I thought I need to run a strategy to make my living I was not consequent and made too much sacrifices which I regret looking back. And the tax issue showed me that it did not even work the way I thought. Thats why this topic had such a tremendous impact on me.
But good I learned the lesson and once more I got reminded that the very moment in life is the only thing which counts.
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