Hello HP ...
For me -Chris Rea was not the one, whom I thought of, was independend and shure he was't.
"On the road to Hell"...BUT he HAS reach our hearts! I love his popsongs a bit more then his good blues music!
So In one point I have another opinion:
That it IS at least POSSIBLE, to really reach people deep inside, without playing the songs wich are not the ultimate music one feels inside!
Maybe it's a lot more easy as we think it's true, as a musician with high claims. 😉
To go on a lifelong journey and play music you don`t really like - yes this is sad.
About the real reason of an illness I'm a little sceptic all the time - so I add something more...
Who REALLY knows, C. Rea's Cancer was the result of his dissatisfaction?
CAN be - I read, what the truth becomes - are our thoughts and what works out of the subconsciousness, projectet together with our feelings. This is a modern assumption - how creatin works. So yes: at least we should take account of this.
About general music...
I find it difficult to fulfill the claim: to be "in complete flow and emotional connected" all the time - over a long peroid of time. As much as I would have like it for myself - to play with this deep feelings - to be in the flow, all the time etc. :
EXACT that was, at least for me - what made it even harder - sometimes 😉
OK. That is what a virtuoso is made for! 🤩
What I can read and feel about your peronal story here - it's apparent that you are very true to your heart and that you are steering YOUR TRUE journey you really love. So I'm thankful to have found a musician and musicteacher, that is showing deep insights of his personal aspects and also his very touching grandpiano music!
Fly on HP!
This post is made with help of deepL 😇🤣 in english from a native German to a native Jamaican Swiss musican.